And i’m really scared all the time. Like anxious.. I’m scared when I shower. When I blow dry my hair. And when I’m laying in bed about to go to sleep. Idk what the hell is wrong with me. I feel like a little kid afraid of the dark and the “monster” under the bed. UGH. 

I feel ugly. I feel fat. I feel… like i’m going to explode and I just want summer to come so I can go smoke a joint on the pier and listen to the waves crumble.